fort week

its our first week in fort and as promised by my supervisor he was gonna give me the morning shift for a change..

however, i dont think intentional naman its payroll week.. making it impossible for anyone to go home by 530 because of the load of work and the freezing temperature (not connected hhe the new place is so cold para kaming nasa baguio lahat...) darn well at least i would have lots of OT pay in the coming payslip. grabe i arrive to work at 830 and would be lucky to leave by 730(which didnt really happened).. wala na kaming social life. my former teammate was inviting me labas daw last night pero almost 9 na ko nakaalis ng work. pouts

now i can really say na im happy with my new team na. well its really weird coz it took me just over a month to be close to my team now compared to my former team which took 2 months siguro.. well syempre kasi the first month with my former team wala ba yung "batchmates" ko.. well happy lang naman ako with my new team because im comfortable na with all of them (except for my current line manager and to-be-line manager) but thats ok i would be able to warm up to my to be line manager now that he's my seat mate and all..

well hopefully my being makulit and maingay wont backfire.. ayaw pa nila tuloy akong turuan coz susuko daw sila sa kakulitan ko.. anyway i wont stop nagging them until they teach me noh.. lol hhe anyway when they say im super makulit i tell them na lang na matakot sila kung naging tahimik ako coz ibig sabihin nun ayaw ko na sa kanila.

anyway my new team is composed of one line manager two supervisor 6 processors.. 3 lang kaming girls so it feels weird since i came from a team of 7.. 6 of which are girls..

to hazie.. WELCOME TO THE HSBC FAMILY. (figure it out: ).... you break the news)

too comfortable for comfort

its been a month and a week since i started in my new team.. well i dont think they are a trigger happy team.. kaya am not sure when i could show pics of my new teammates..

its pretty interesting to know them little by little.. medyo nagwarm up na naman ako sa lahat ng ka team ko well with exception to my line manager.. is that a bad thing?? anyway eventually magiiba naman line manager ko so i dont think being close to my current one or not would be a problem.. the problem would be my going-to-be-new-line manager would be my going-to-be-new-seatmate sa fort .. holy sh!t

anyway im getting comfy na with the people and most of the work.. however i think im getting too comfy for my own good...

before i could not do what my boss wants me to do all i need to do is say so..
now whenever i say something parang napapasama. even if im just commenting on how irritating the procedure is. they think that im complaining or being bossy or being childish

before i dont care what i joke around
now i bite my tongue to stop myself from commenting/joking about a lot of situations

anyway i feel bad lang kasi when i told my "boss" offhandedly naman. cause i was super tired na and irritated in waiting for him.. "baka naman gusto mo ng i approve toh" a little too loud coz my teammates heard it. my boss was like "ah ganun.." in a tone that implies na i dont have the right to say that. anyway. the tension didnt last naman coz he let go of it na when i didnt wanted to talk about it. putting my i dont care if you dont like it face. well at least i hope so.. and maybe next time i'd just keep my mouth shut..

letting go

its been almost a month since i've changed team.. it was easier than i expected.. since i could easily go back to my former teammates when im overly stressed from not talking for more than an hour.

hhe joke.. of course i talk. "uy question" "pano ulit toh?" "pa approve" "pa disapprove"

but seriously. im starting to warm up to my new colleagues.. they now know just how makulit iam when i want something. and how i love junk foods. and how i walk around(towards my former team) when im done with my work. kaya tuloy they are planning on giving me extra work everytime they see me walking around.. (hope this was a joke)

anyway its sad to feel out of place na minsan sa dati kong team. they are still very warm to me but i sometimes feel awkward na dun. or maybe because they are busy when i go there kaya no time to chat? it just feels weird that i dont know the latest chismis or the latest problem or the latest joke or the latest fight anymore. and its especially sad when they dont invite me when they have pizza or food anymore. im so not part of the dept anymore: (

makes me wonder if the friends i make in the office would last after i decide to leave.

i guess the reason why i dislike changes.. half the fear of rejection from the new and half the fear of being forgotten by the former ..

actually its pretty funny that fate is slowly adjusting me to change. first napunta ako sa ibang team pero same office with my old team nearby.. then in a few weeks we're moving to fort. so new location naman and surroundings. i guess the next would be new company na talaga. im tired of saying i wanna leave and not finding the willpower or determination to actually start the process of leaving.

omg we are actually going top fort na before the month ends.. im going to miss enterprise.. how watsons and ministop and starbucks is just an elevator ride away and jolibee and mcdo just a few steps away.. glorietta and greenbelt a few blocks away.. shux i really dont know how i will survive going to fort everyday. if only there's mrt there. or even just a shuttle or jeep or something.