Taiwan post

Im going on a three week Taiwan trip on May3-23, 09... Im super excited na talaga! hehe..

it feels like im back in school.. sort of.. medyo weird eh.. sayang lang coz some groups are forming cliques na so super parang high school. pero theres a handful of graceans din naman.. kami ang mga outcast hehe.. dami kasing taga ica. pero some of them are nice naman =)

right now. we are practicing for our performance. there's three performancees pero isa lang ang ippresent namin three times. medyo pinaghirapan na din namin. kaso mas kinareer ng ibang groups yung kanila. talagang 3 different performances sila. pero hinati nila yung group nila so not all would be performing each time.. hehe.. good idea sana pero ok na din... we were able to get to know each other more naman sa mga practices.(haha bitter)

apologies

Im super sorry for last saturday. medyo biglaan kasi yung problem at home so i wasnt able to go on the last minute... next time ulit!! Please =)

foreboding

have you ever had that feeling that something is going to happen.. something huge that you should anticipate it with joy/be scared witless about it?

sometimes.. i just go on a day and suddenly start to become restless. from past experiences... it doesnt seem to be a warning or anything.. its just a feeling but nothing ever really happens.. but its damn freaks me out everytime it happens..

since i dont know if its gonna be a good thing or bad thing.. whenever i feel unexplainably happy i would pull my happiness back and worry about what is causing that feeling. or when i feel unexplainably anxious i try to reassure myself to stop fretting.... did i forget something? or is there something important that is going to happen...

oh no.. when i write it out it feels more psychotic than when i was just thinking about it..

hehe.. anyway.. i dont understand myself either.. and im sure im not on drugs =D