resolutions

i have been trying to make a list of resolutions that i would be breaking i meant doing for 2009. however. i cant make up my mind as to what is important and what is realistic and what is worthwhile.. sheesh.. i think 09 would come and go and i still wont be able to make a decent list hhe..

anyways i want to travel next year.. well every year actually pero next year i would really plan one : ) so davao? palawan? bora? thailand? singapore? anyone?? im not sure where i would want to go.. cause im greedy and want them all. but as money is an issue.. i would have to limit my travels and save up for more. so so?

well i got sidetracked again.. as an uncle told me.. say your plans to everyone so that you would be ashamed and pressured to do them all..

1) i would be punctual na sa work.. (i would mark the number of time im late and it wont exceed once a week) hahaha.. syempre may loopholes.. kung ma trafic(yeah right) kung may baha (hhe)

2)...
i havent decided..puro generic lang kasi naiisip ko.. hhe...

so CUTE!!!

these are so cute.. i was browsing through the most emailed pictures of the year in Yahoo.. some were bizarre but these are adorable!!!

and another one!
hhe yun lang..

movies 08

this year i had my first used planner.. where i keep the list of restos and movies and stuffs.. yep its not really a planner its more like a detail diary or something..

well since i have written them all.. well i think i did.. here's my list of movies watched in the cinema.. i won't be able to recall the movies i downloaded even if i wanted to.. hhe

1) National Treasure 2 - Gateway 130108
2) Sweeney Todd - Trinoma 190108
3) PS I Love You - Trinoma 260108
4)Battle of Wits - Trinoma 030208
5) Jumper - Trinoma 170208
6) U23D - the Block 060408
7) 88 Minutes - Trinoma 210408
8) Ironman - Trinoma 150508
9) Sex and the City - Trinoma 060608
10) Hancock - Trinoma 040708
11) Journey to the Center of the Earth - Trinoma 110708
12) Dark Knight - Trinoma 200708
13) Mamma Mia - Trinoma 220708
14) High School Musical 3 - Trinoma 251008
15) Twilight - Trinoma 271108


Lol looking back.. i can't believe i watch 13/15 movies in trinoma.. i should get a loyalty card or something.. its a really expensive past time... 15 movies at approximately Php150 each that's.... (let me get my calculator) Php2250? bear with me i cant find the stupid calculator uhm yep i think thats right.. see Php 2250?!?!?!? sheesh how many DVD could i buy from that? more or less 45? that could last me a whole year! and to think i need to pay for my sister's ticket whenever they drag me to watch.. hha.. but i guess one needs a vice one way or the other.. at least being stuck in a cinema for an hour and half or two would give me less time to go around shopping right? in that case good investment good investment... Hhe:D

post post post

hhe i know i know im on the roll.. im not doing anything and i have a ton of stuff to say.. and no one to tell it to.. well i cant bring myself to talk about stuff which are sad.. but i need to let it out somehow..

i have always had a weird habit of wanting to cry.. i used to try to think of sad things to make myself cry on purpose before i go to sleep when no one is looking. i think its weird but i feel comforted afterwards. parang you let some sadness out of your system or maybe because of the fact that you think of things that are so much worst than your present situation that you can't help but feel a little better..

sometimes i would imagine and cry until my chest tightens into a knot that i need to comfort myself to sleep..

these year.. i dont think i ever did it again.. one thing is because my sisters are a lot older and does not sleep as early as they used to.. hhe and another is because i felt it really stupid to imagine things to make yourself cry.. and maybe because i cried a lot already this year to even bother.

sorry i was about to rant a long rant but i still can't talk about it without feeling bad about it.. so this entry wouldn't make any sense because it didnt led to what i wanted to talk about... suffice it to say that i cried a bucket and ten this year.. for family friend and myself.. and i hoped i cried myself dry for in a few days it would be a fresh new year. may we all have a great OX year.

2008 the not so good year

everytime i feel sorry about myself i would just remind myself that things could always get a lot worse.. it has not been a great year for me.. and based on the newspapers i think im not the only one.. i've experienced being lost and hurt and depressed and angry which was the basic theme of my 2008..

it has taken its toll in my work and my uhm head. well as vain as it sounds im afraid im getting a lot older faster when im always sad and gloomy.. i missed being the girl who used to go around the aisle of Rizal Library with a little hop in every step. to be the girl who would talk endlessly while working. well i cant go back to college but i could try to bring that little girl back.. one day at a time..

i dont want to look 24 by the end of next year.. because i would always and forever be 21 ; ) so whoever would ask my age next year it would be 21.. well of course unless its about the kai-shiao thing then i guess i should tell my real age unless i want to be paired up with a kid right? hhe

Christmas Season

Sleep til your Hungry, Eat til your Sleepy

I have never eaten so much food in my life! Its been food food and food. hhe.. my only defense would be to say that as soon as new year's here.. i'd stop being a glutton :D hha i hope

well being these full made me realize that FULL sounds a little to much like FOOL.. hhe.. i feel like a total FOOL when my waist line burst because of being FULL of food.. sorry im still being foolish..

its been a day of food.. i slept til 9am and then ate normal breakfast and then ate lunch in Savory because my dad wants to (he would usually reminisce his childhood memories whenever we see a savory.. the times when one small part of chicken would earn his eternal gratitude).. and then ate pizza pasta for an afternoon heavy merienda. and then we still need to eat dinner because my parents believed that we are supposed to eat dinner at around7pm even if we are already full.. crazy i know.. hhe so now and hour after dinner im still too full..

Twilight

i havent been browsing the net for a while.. but the twilight is still making quite a headline.. especially now that Robert Pattinson has had a hair cut.. LOL imagine one haircut causing an uproar? i mean if he can't wash his hair for more than two days in a row.. to hell with the movie and cut the hair off.. hhe.. i think he still looks the same (DUH!!) so no biggie.. he does look a lot neater : )

well then there's another Twilight headlines that is not as easy to digest.. ABS is making a local version of Twilight.. im not sure if it would sell.. i think it just might.. cause i am planning to sneak a peek on the local version and see how they would do it :D

Christmas!!!!!!

its tomorrow! surprise surprise!! its really weird.. its tomorrow and i still dont feel very Christmas-y.. other than the unusually frequent fireworks display of my neighbors. SM and trinoma.. its nice of them too talk with each other and give way para di sila sabay magpapaputok one's at 7 and the other's at 8pm..

last monday i went to trinoma and was able to catch the fireworks display of SM from trinoma's parking lot!! i parked my car sa nearest sa wall (farthest sa entrance) and watched it from the side.. it was nice.. i remembered that last year i was able to catch a fireworks show from H's car..

a decade and one

today my sixth grade shobe had some friends over.. 10! and thats only a few of the invited friends..

i had lunch with K whose younger sister is included in the prior said gathering.. and we were able to relate on how different these sixth graders are from us... they are going house hopping and going to gimmicks already!! i mean im surprised that the age limits in bars are still 18. these kids would probably enter one when their what 15? hhe.. db? grabe their already in a different generation from us!! i feel damn old.

a decade and one year age gap and we're already old fashion : (

Food Entry

I have quite unsuccessfully tried creating a food blog which i would try to do another one again one of these days.....

anyway.. a friend referred this site to me http://gourmandtales.wordpress.com/ this caught my eye Woori jib Korean Restaurant its somewhere near UP siguro? hhe I've no idea.. it says kalayaan ave... : ) diba R you want korean?

Theres a ton of nice restaurants... cant wait to try them : )

And have you seen this article YET?? ICE CREAM BUFFET!!!!!!!!! kaso its every thursday of december lang... boohoo.. im not sure if i could swing by rockwell this month on a thursday.. sheesh.. anyways hope some of you could find this helpful...

Christmas post

the first Christmas-y thing i did this year was -- i went to color my toenails purple.. well its not really a Christmas color but i was planning on black and backed out since its Christmas so i think that counts.. : )

My Wish...

i "found" this song again a few weeks back.. i sent it to a friend because it seemed right. so now everytime i hear this song it makes me feel that iam saying it to a friend. the song is so sweet and sad that you just cant help but feel well sad with it.. but i still liked the song.. even though my bro is getting head aches from it na from the constant playback in the office.. hhe

My Wish

Rascal Flatts

I hope that the days come easy

and the moments pass slow

And each road leads you where you want to go

And if you're faced with a choice

and you have to choose

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed

I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window

If it's cold outside,

show the world the warmth of your smile

But more than anything, more than anything

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small

You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to

I hope you know somebody loves you

and wants the same things too

Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget

All the ones who love you, in the place you left

I hope you always forgive, and you never regret

And you help somebody every chance you get

Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake

And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything,

yeah, and more than anything

My wish, for you,is that this life becomes all that you want it to

Your dreams stay big and your worries stay small

You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to

I hope you know somebody loves you

and wants the same things too

Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small

You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to

I hope you know somebody loves you

and wants the same things too

Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish

I hope you know somebody loves you

May all your dreams stay big

HAPPY CHRISTMAS MONTH!!!!!!!!!!

It's actually december! its crazy scary how time flies.. even if you're not having fun.

Twilight

Robert Pattinson is just adorable!!!!!! Here's a link of his interview in tyra. I think if he was allowed to use his british accent in the movie.. Everybody would adore him!!!

Funny how fast you can get caught up in a fad.. barely a month ago..(when was High School Musical?) i didnt even know what twilight was. hhe but i guess it shows that i didnt waited long to catch up.. i feel so isolated.. working at home with only my brother to chat with im so outdated! If my shobes werent pushing me to accompany them to go watch twilight i dont think i would have even noticed it.. Well of course when she said that Edward Cullen was Cedric in Harry Potter now that got my attention.. : ) im even more hooked with twilight than my older shobe.. silly me.. hha..

gym people

hey H i froze my december account na din and is thinking if i would go for one year na..

and i saw bry from HS and emer from elementary last night both at ABS.. hhe funny because i was just thinking that i never meet anyone i know sa gym and then poof i saw two..

the green monster in me

when it comes to being nice.. sometimes i know im not a very nice person.. but i guess maybe because sometimes its really really hard to be one..

well today my parents bought my shobe a new laptop.. i wish i had one when i was in college and i still wish i have one of my own now.. its a sony vaio... a blockmate of mine had one before and i really really wanted one.. anyways since my shobe is currently leaving away from home it was decided if she gets high grades on her midterm exam she would get a laptop.. well surprise surprise the grades came out and she got a C.. im not sure how hard the midterms are in taft but i definitely dont think a C is high enough for a laptop.. anyways i guess im the only one who thinks so cause as of the moment my shobe is playing with her new laptop..

i know i know there are tons of stories like this.. bitter hhe.. pero yung effort na binigay ko noon i could have gotten myself a car! anyways i hope its all for the best.

traffic damn

H just wrote an entry about getting stucked in traffic. well here's mine. its so irritating that its funny..

today's my dad's bday so we were gonna celebrate with my family with some sales people in tramway timog.. i volunteered to go pick up my two shobes from school and train station.. anyways it took us more than two hours to get both shobes and by then it was past 8 oclock and we were expected there by 7 and if we were lucky we would get there by 930.. so in the end we didnt pushed thru... since it was almost 9 we have no food at home. we ended up in waltermart.. if you knew where i live.. you would find it funny.. i live about a block away from waltermart and to go ride a car for two and a half hour and ending up in a restaurant about 5minutes walk away from my place.. hhe.. i find it really funny and my two brothers would surely find it hilarious when they come back from the party...

HSM night

last night i went to watch (with my two shobes and a friend with her own shobes) HSM 3.. it was just as i expected.. light teenybopper and well lots of singing.. it was nice naman..

while walking by the coming soon movies.. we saw twilight and my shobe told me that the lead guy there was in Harry Potter.. she was sulking that he was not cute enough to be Edward in Twilight.. i was like hold it rewind who was he in Harry Potter?? she went duh si Cedric! hhe come to think of it. he does look likes Cedric.. and Cedric WAS cute in Harry Potter.. hhe.. there i was arguing with Shobe that Cedric is cute kaya.. hhe i know it sounds and it did felt like a high school girls' argument. but it was fun : )

muddy feets

i cant resist.. look at our feets :D

<= hhe buti nlng di ako nagpamanicure..

H's shoes.. kawawa yung

maglalaba.. hhe ==>

in times of need.. who do we call?

a remark of my dad.. "lahat na ng DIYOS tinawagan namin". it doesnt sound as bad as it does.. hhe.. he just meant that during the bad times my family endured last month. a lot of people were praying for it to end. may they be catholic, buddhist or born again- i am very grateful for all of them- they were all calling their personal God to help us out.

maybe we are all really praying at the same God. i think that the different gods of the different religions are just different manifestations of one ultimate Being. Maybe a Born again's God and a Muslim's Allah and a Buddhist's Buddha are one of the many faces of just one Supreme Being..

so the pagan who were worshiping the nature or a rock or a lake were right. because they were worshiping God where they see/encounter Him.. within Christianity palang there's been hundreds of different interpretation of the Bible na.

TWILIGHT

i just saw the trailer and parang i wanna watch : )

Bang bang bang

today is the first time that i was able to hold a gun. im not sure if i would be able to push through with learning it. but i hope i would.

it was weird.. i've always wanted to fire a gun.. just for self defense of course: ) i didnt thought it would be that heavy.. i wasnt even able to "kasa" it properly.. the barrel was so "hard"..

and the when it was time to fire at the target paper.. i felt scared. yep scared.. i wasnt firing at a living thing.. it was a cardboard.. but i felt scared.. weird right?

the first time i fired.. i was almost thrown back by the force!! hhe i know im a weakling but i didntt thought i was that WEAK!!!! shux embarrassing..

it was nice. i hope i could do it again.. the right way.

oh yeah and the discrimination is horrible.. my brother fired about a dozen or two shots.. i fored a measly 5? times.. anyways i was so nervous i was happy to stop.. hhe till next time..

as if people dont have enough problems

in between lehman and aig.. people are currently at a state of paranoia as to where to invest their money and assets.. stocks are down.. commodities are down.. morales are way down..

so people just leave it in banks and then comes the fear as to which bank would crumble under pressure.. now this.. news has it that a bank manager has been kidnapped in the past two days.. no news as to which bank she is in but shes divorced and her only daughter is in europe studying.. so it is feared that she was kidnapped to extract informations about rich bank clients..

yeah i know.. as if we dont have enough problems right now..

i know that life is unfair but this is too much.. how could some people be so inhuman that they find a living out of the misery of someone else.. those kind of people should be killed in front of their family so that their kids woulld see how bad their parents are.. maybe that would stop them or maybe it wont...

difference between boys and girls

i was reading an article in STAR the other day about how a boy let slide a comment by a girl saying that girls are way better than boys.. he made the girl believe that she's right so that he can enjoy his dinner... it was quite an article making sayings like "the wife is always right" seem like an illusion.


today while i was having my usual shouting matches with my mom because she was being so unreasonable.. my dad is just looking on.. it made me realize that if i was smart enough(like my dad) i would not have engaged my mom in a shouting match since it doesnt help any, right? so that why guys are just silent when the girls are shouting at them.. hhehehe.. smart a$$

bonfire video

more like fireworks video.. hhe.. with a little of H in it : )

ONE BIG FIGHT!!!

too much analyzing is bad

Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

very true.. so should we just live life as simple minded as we can?

ONE BIG FIGHT

last night i was able to go to the Bonfire Party.. i was so happy! hhe after three weeks of house arrest i was able to go out for the night.. the night was short. but it was more than i expected.

the place was muddy and packed.. it was so fun hha.. if only i wasnt worried na mapatid yng sandals ko kasi nakailang beses ng ni rugby yun.. hha it was fun and hard to walk around the muddy bel field.. wahaha. one time both my feets were ankle deep in mud.. i was like.. just dont let me slip and make my sandals last until the nights over.. hhe

there was a looooong program and then the bonfire and then fireworks and concert.. sayang due to my early curfew we just saw sponge cola perform.. i was hoping to see parokya sana but anyways.. it was worth all the muddy feet and sandals..

oh and can i just say.. how can any guy be so perfect? as a news article described Chris Tiu looks brains brawns and breeding.. shux.. hhe..

just a thought

its been a HELL of a month. i have tons of thoughts about a lot of stuffs but i just cant make myself write anything about it. i feel like i wont be able to say what i truly feel and that it stops me from writing anything..

tonight my mom was praying a prayer which was provided by a friend. she tells me that praying it makes her heart feel a little lighter. and i told her that people seeks a higher Being to believe in when things are out of our reach or control. people find it easier to understand life when they believe that someone is watching and guiding all of us.. it may be to God, to Allah, to Buddha, to any saints there are. but the idea or the faith is the same. (grace might just disown me for this) we seek understanding through something that is not understandable. so that it takes a part of our responsibility or a part of our worries away from us.

after my long lecture. hhe. i realize that i was being selfish. di ko ma explain. its not the simple i go to God when im scared.. its more like i have lost my faith in people that i place my faith in Him nlng.. see i dont even understand what im thinking anymore..

Laguna Pictures

Guys sorry for the super long wait

i know i know i didint know how to give it to you

anywayz... here's my crude way of sharing hhe

go to Multiply.com
user picsforus
password: (my name) ***** ****

hope you guys could get them : )

BONFIRE on tuesday!!!!!! I so want to go.. : (

Ateneo YEAR

WOOHOOO!!!!!!

diaspora

crazy day crazy week crazy experience.. im really really going crazy..

sad tired angry and scared.. how can anyone not go crazy?

a thought

"life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forward." Kierkegaard

life can be a b!tch.

fitness first?!? can i say last?

iam so so tired!!!! its been almost 24 hours since my overpaid torture but my whole body aches(well actually just my arms) that trainer is not a nurse!!

anyway last night was our first time to go to the gym and i knew it would be hard since im a self confessed bum who never really works out for more than an hour..anyway i hope i feel better tom cause tom its back to the gym...

Olympic tradition

i guess normal din pala and lip syncing sa olympics..

amazing sand castles

so pretty!!! i dont understand how the builders could stand doing something so nice and destroying it right after... so sad!

tween shows

since the start of the school year all computers have been occupied.. so i always end up watching tv with my youngest sister..

and i realized in between watching the wizard family, zack and cody, unfabulous and life with derreck.. im watching kids shows!!! not that there's anything wrong about it.. pero if my past time is watching kids are around with my little sis.. parang somethings weird na.. hhe.. pero they are light and wholesome so maybe its not that weird right?

Hhe.. wala lang just feels like sharing.

Something new

i realize that last night was my first time to go into a karaoke place... there were some occassions na i went with my x-officemates to dampa where there would be a videoke pero syempre different atmosphere yun.. magulo and puro food.. hhe.. i have this fear of attention when i know that im not good at it.. so i stay away from singing dancing and talking in front of a crowd basically amost everything that i feel im not very good.. the experience was fun and next time i will be ready with a list of songs na : )

mamma mia is still stucked on my head..

Beijing 08

last night was the finale of Beijing 08 and i really felt sad that its all over now.. it became a habit to check the gold medal count and the total medal count every now and then.. and to check pictures and stories and commentaries about the olympics.. it was a 2 weeks performance that went by so fast.. darn i remember 2000olympics where they announced Beijing to be the host for the big 08 and it seemed so far away..

anyway. now that its done. i feel sad that the bashings and the insults on Beijing Olympics will dwindle down to zero.. I have this firm belief that people (envious people) are the ones who would bash and make insulting comments and notice the bad things about everything.. and that only proves how good Beijing was in hosting the events.. would people care that the song was lip synced(parang wrong spelling :D) if the performance was not good? would people care that the gymnast seems (not proven) underaged if she didnt won the gold over US? would the digitally enhanced fireworks be a big deal if the show was ugly?

no..

because people wont care if Beijing didnt do a great job..

Kudos to Beijing! Great job!

lifehouse effect

if we were to go to a lifehouse concert today.. i could probably sing along most of the songs by now.. hhe kinda late right? im such a bad crammer.. well.. now im a lifehouse fan hhe.. nice songs and cute lead : )

Cinderella night

since H is most probably on her way to watch Cinderella right now.. i can write about it na.. hhe.. if anyone reading this plans to watch it.. uhm i suggest stop because with my continuous ramblings i can get out of hand and spoil it for you.

me and kim went to watch Cinderella last night in CCP.. i think this is my first play that i really wanted to watch.. from what i remember all the other plays were either required or for bonus points hhe.. by some luck(good or bad?) we ended up buying the cheapest ticket since fully booked!! yung gusto naming seats. (mid range kasi kaya siguro naubos kaagad) our seats were on the 4th flr!!! they all looked so small!!

we ended up buying a disposable "eyemax" which seems to magnify the stage so it was worth it naman hhe even when you get dizzy looking through it.. either that or you look at really really small show...

the play was worth watching tlga.. i love cinderella so the story is good, the singers were good, the set was nice, our seats were cheap :D all in all a pretty good show tlga.. the place was packed.. there were some seats vacant pero parang butas butas lang and to think its a tuesday night! wow!!

i wasnt ecstatic about all the song choices they're not mainstream but they were just right.. and the ten minutes song was so enchanting hhe... its my first time to see lea live.

well having cheap seats have some bad side effects.. we cant see the whole stage!!! we were already seated at the very front of our level and we cant see parts of the stage na mataas.. and to think at the finale which was the wedding.. the prince and cinderella were on top of the tall stage so we could only

see their neck down!! wah!! i was laughing at the silliness of it all and groaning when we were not able to see them kiss.. (kasi neck down lang eh) i mean we can figure it out from watching their body language.. but still!!! stupid props people.. i mean i know we bought cheap tickets but they should have made sure that the props well at least the actors are still visible kahit your seated way at the top right?!?

i guess all of us dream of our very own happily ever after.. but i think sadly iam not as naive and not as a dreamer as i was a few years back.. i cringe at some of the sappy dialogues and roll my eyes at some of the "magical" scenes.. i think waiting for my prince is making me a bitter realist.. kasi naman ang tagal niya db?!? hhe

anyway it was such a nice night hopefully there would be more plays to look forward to, more movies to see and more of everything hhe.. im a glutton for gimmicks : )

post olympic opening post

last friday (yup olympic opening night) i had dinner with some HSBC people.. it was an entertaining night.. with me providing much of the entertainment.. kwentuhan and puro updates about the office people and well remembering the "good?" old times.. unfortunately i needed to miss the BIG opening..

well i could sum up my dinner as entertaining and frustrating.. it was fun catching up and learning about the happenings after i left.. the camaraderie is still there even if they would talk about the new people.. pero the worst tlga when one of them said na mukhang mas magaling na sa kin yung pumalit sa kin.. kaya parang di na daw nila ako nammiss!!!!!!!! insensitive brute!! anyway.. other than that and remembering that im a stupid girl.. the dinner was alright.. Jon even unexpectedly hugged me when we met..

back to the opening which iam currently watching (at my lunch break).. what struck me other than the extravangance (which is opposite the well known frugality of Chinese people.. is the fact that all the performers of the big production ones(theres hundreds of them.. im not sure if 2008 people din sila) all of them seems so happy.. none of them gets the spotlights alone.. what with lots of them out at the same time.. but they are doing it unselfishly for China and not for themselves.. amazing.. you could see the dedication and pride in just being there..

oops lunch break's over...

archie's back!!

i saw this link in People.com.. he's first single! "Crush" Hhe..

grabe he's really just a kid .. But he's really so cute!!

ta ai talk

tonight i went to a "talk" held by TA AI people.. it was supposedly a talk to disprove the logic behind the "ghost" month of the lunar calendar which started yesterday.. yes people its the seventh month in the lunar calendar.. so expect more praying and alay ng foods to the dead..

so thinking that its quite an interesting topic and being gullible enough to actually think it gonna be better than sitting in front of my pc and being bored... i happily wwent with my parents and a pair of uncle auntie to the said seminar.. the minute no the second i entered the venue which was second floor of a bookshop that sells ta ai books.. i knew i made a huge mistake.. there were old people inside the small room.. i believe that i was the youngest and my parents werent in the old age range.. so imagine my chagrin to be late and be seated in front of the podium.. huhu...

i think nag-nose bleed ako listening palang.. no chance to get out because i was seated in front with my parents on the other table : ( and there is really no place to go.. we were not exactly in the center of ongpin area and the talk lasted for an hour and a half so no place to tambay!!

shux next tym i should take a hint.. if none of my siblings wanted to go.. something is definitely wrong with it.

8 days til 080808

Olympics is coming!! Im not really a fan of olympics and the only thing i am excited to see is the lighting of the torch and of course the list of gold silver bronze medals each country gets..

pero syempre its different since this time around its in Beijing.. i really want to go to Beijing and experience the excitement and the beauty and the extravaganza that the Olympic would bring..

I love the mascots.. they're so cute!!

new telenovela

there's a new telenovela being aired in taiwan.. we have it here in cable.. however... it's in chinese cable.. huhu... just goes to show how bad my chinese is... i think at most i can understand half of what they're saying the other half i get from their actions..

it has JERRY YAN and WU CHUN in it.. super eye candies :D hhe well Jerry Yan is the guy on the right.. and wu chun is the one in the middle.. hhe i dont really know who the other guy is.. but i watched the show the other night and it seems that he's the bida of the show.. sad.. why?!?

its gonna be aired in abs but im not sure when.. it just started airing its first episode in taiwan..

lifehouse at araneta

last night H and me went to watch Lifehouse in araneta with a couple of her two TALL cousins :D hhe and her sister and her sister's friends..

i wasnt expecting much from the concert since i didnt had the time to cram.. so i am happy to report that i think i was able to sing along siguro 3-4 songs and am familiar with only half of the repertoire.. hhe it was not as nice as vertical horizon's concert last year (sorry. hhe) but it was still a good concert and the lead singer is so cute..

i dont know how to embed videos so here's an 18second video of just how cute the lead singer was...

laugh is the best medicine

today i have realized that i havent had a chance to laugh out loud as much as before..

since im just working at home and spending nights at home.. there's not much occassion to laugh..

and that led me to think that im getting older not as much because a day has passed.. but because now that we're working and not having enough time to do what we want.. there's not enough time to laugh.. well at least not as much as when we were younger..

oh no now im getting wrinkles from worrying about not laughing enough.. hhe..

the grass is greener on the other side

there's this article in the paper. where a writer was talking about how she and her friends being in their late twenties having a pretty successful life blah blah blah are still not contented with what they have. they dont know much about the future as we do.. isnt it funny that deep down everybody is the same?? that everyone is just as confused as you and me..  

she said something about when you begin to realize that you will forever be discontented that's when you can be happy.. we would forever we thinking that the grass is greener at the other side

i do believe that no one in this world is always happy.. you get snippets of happiness, a sprinkling of problem, a thread of patience, an ounce of anger and hopefully a gallon or two of faith and hope.. and i guess the only thing left to do is live life one emotion at a time

Jollibee

last sunday i went to kiddie party of my first inaanak.. it was in Jollibee.. and while i was watching the kids play and the mascot dance it made me realize that Jollibee is one of the Disney places for me.. it is where you feel like a kid no matter how old you are..  

a lot of random stuff since my last post...

today my bro said that cigarette ads are now banned in prints and media.. and my initial answer was what i thought that is on 2008 pa? my dad and bro looked at me like i was still asleep (it was around 8am naman) then it hit me.. ooh yeah. it is 2008.. lol second half of it i might say..

well i havent had the chance to update since my sister has been hogging the pc since the schoolyear started.. and the little time i have online is spent playing games and checking mails and of course checking your blogs for updates. :D

i have been wishing to go to Bohol for the longest time.. and it just so happened that we coincided with Typhoon Frank.... well even with Frank i still had a great time going around bohol or just plain wasting time in BBC.. i guess we made the right decision of choosing a good resort.. so worth it!!

love Bohol even with rain.. it was so anti peaceful but peaceful pa din.. i love vacations.. its a space in time where you feel like you dont need to worry about anything.. no work no rules no boundaries.

im supposed to go to batangas with my ex co workers this weekend but i dont think i will. my parents would kill me going away again right after bohol.. but i really think this would be the last thing that i would be doing with them.. its been half a year already and communcation with them has been almost zero.. but the resposible thing to do is to work especially now that 3 people resigned in a span of two weeks.. darn them..

i went to watch Hancock the other day with some grace people.. and i realize that i really dont know more than half of our batch.. well it doesnt help that im such an unsociable person until now.. is it weird that i find it easier to just stick with people who i already know than go out of my way to get to know someone who just might not want to get to know me?

well Hancock was good.. it was worth it not as good as Ironman pero I do like it better than Spiderman 3..

today i had another round of scolding from my dad.. rather than talk back i mean fight back.. i just kept quiet (i was quiet the whole morning) because i know i am at fault..

i just cant get myself to do what i know is right.. im not sure why.. somethings wrong with me. one part of me knows that i need to exert some effort but the other part of me feels that its not worth it or maybe i think im not worth it..

i feel so depressed hating myself for being such a coward.. i disguise it as laziness but i think im lazy because im a coward.

creating boundaries

boundaries dont keep people out. they fence you in -- greys anatomy

so simple yet complicated...

currently watching greys anatomy.. iam actually half watching the show.. meaning half of the time i have my eyes closed.. hhe trying to cut off the gross parts...

im still in episode two and iam already hooked up with mcdreamy... he's not just cute, he's charming.. hhe

did you know?

that confucius died thinking that he lived a worthless life? well that 's according to the calendar hanging by my table.. im not sure if its reliable... SO dont quote me on that

well if its true.. then its a great irony that the man who is probably the greatest Chinese thinker or even the greatest thinker actually thought that he was not a good thinker...

i hope not.. because in my opinion he should have felt very important and lived a great life.. because i expect that life should be fair.. and since he is still making raves upto our time. he should have at least some impact while he was alive.. (i think he did sa government ata siya nagwwork)

how can the greatest painter live in misery while they were alive and be worth millions of dollars once they have died? i dunno like picasso or someone. hhe from my very minimal knowledge of art im pretty sure a lot of painters were poor when they were alive..

life is weird.. why do we keep on trying to understand it? maybe we are not supposed to understand it.. maybe we are supposed to be confident enough that life is and would always be unpredictable and confusinhg.

*just checked wiki and i dont think picasso was poor :D i guess some other painter then.. hhe

Carpe Diem - - - - tomorrow?

i've been downloading movies frm the web.. and had this urge to watch dead poets society again.. got around in watching it today. and i guess i felt the same way about the movie as i did when i first saw it for one of my college classes.. (i cant remember which)..

was supposed to write "detached" but i cant explain it. so i would just say that i felt sad.. the point of the story is to Seize the Day. and i felt that after a few years here i am watching the movie all over again and still not getting it..

as of now.. im still more like the scared guy who doesn't know how to stand up for what he thinks is right.. i take into consideration what other people thinks, what other people wants and what other people would feel.. when will i be the able to Seize the day???

*spoiler* refresher of the ENDING

boy 1(neil) - after being prohibited to continue acting and bbing unable to stand up for himself against his parents..he killed himself

boy 2(todd)- after being forced to signed a fake confession letter due to pressures from his parents.. he stood up for his prof(keating) in the end (the other boys followed his lead)

boy 3(charlie)- the only one that was not forced to sign a confession.. therefore was expelled fro the school

boy 4(cameron) - was still not standing for himself until the end

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"Two roads diverged in the wood and I, I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference."

such a nice sad movie.. makes you, think.. : )

love mysoju

hhe.. just finished watching witch yoo hee... it was nice.. it got to a point that it keeps on dragging the story by conceiving allsorts of problem just so the show wont end.. but its expected naman since it is a koreanovela.. 

i love this guy... he's one of the love interests in the story.. there were 3

 guys!!! but i love him the most *SPOILER* even if he's not the one who ends up with the girl.. oops.. hhe.. he was so nice and

 sweet in the show.. and he's cool chef to boot : ) 

"if you cant be lovers, be friends... it's heart breaking.. even though its painful, and you don't want to see the person anymore. in the end if you lose a valuable friend, it is more painful" 

http://www.mysoju.com/witch-yoo-hee/episode-15/part-3/

im so bummed

well for one my life is currently going no where! im getting more and more frustrated every day that i wake up knowing that today is just going to be the same as yesterday.

next is why did David C won?!? hhe ang babaw.. i really like him but i would really like American Idol more if David A won :) i was really rooting for him even though i was expecting Cook to win.. and then there's my mom gloating everytime she sees an american idol article in the news..

last.. i cant stand comparisons that parents, people make when it comes to just about everything.. why cant they just mind their own business?!?

long delayed post

have tons of pictures.. so id just post a mix of them.. mostly i tried using my pictures lang kaso i just have a handful of pictures since i hogged the camera almost the whole time..

the first picture is the nearest i have gotten close to andy lau : ( let's just say i was not able to see him run in the torch relay because of some important matters.. wahh!!

• 1st row 3rd pic is the beijing mascots lantern in tsim sha tsui.. wasnt able to see them with the lights on : ( but they are really really cute.. dyan palang ata mga 50pictures na kami hha.. dami kasing different sports na pinoportray..
• last picture same row.. lobby nung boat parang hotel
• 2nd row 4th pic.. me in sanya china.. "end of the earth" parang dati it was considered the end coz sea and sky nlng makikita mo..
• next pic is me in ocean park :) di nagustuhan nina shobe.. hha medyo parang complex na zoo + amusement park..
• 3rd row 2nd pic.. me on the wheel!!!!!! LoL i dont think anybody (me included) trust me enough to navigate a ship
• 3rd row 4th pic.. huge monument. something about a deer turning into a beautiful woman when it had no where else to go coz a hunter (who guess what? fell in love with the girl) was hunting a deer for its blood, which is surprise surprise make you immortal...
• next pic is me "kunwaring" yoghurt lang ang kinain : )
• after that is halong bay.. number one in the current "natural wonders of the world" race.. love it at sunrise. parang hundred islands lang siya up close.. hha ang critical..
• 4th row 1st pic.. me with the professor turtle of ocean park.. supposedly when i started lining up for the photo op.. it was Whiskers the Seal who was the mascot.. when i was almost near the front.. the mascot changed!! : ( anyway might as well smile with the turtle :D
• next pic is my sis competing with frog as to whose got the bigger eyes
• after that is a snapshot of smoggy well lighted hongkong.
• last pic in 4th row. disneyland all fired up
• 5th row 1st pic halong bay
• next is snuffles with the turtle.. we(to be more specific, sister C) won the green teddy bear.. became the fourth person on our group..
• last pic.. while waiting for artistas to come out of the after torch relay party.. "one world one dream" on that day we all wore red.. to symbolize our support to beijing.. buti nlng may nagsabi sa min lol.. because to wear orange is a sign of being anti beijing..

these past few nights

well i havent been able to write much these past few weeks making it hard to write stuffs coz im not sure what to write anymore..

got my DL uhm last thursday?(forgot) i was pleasantly surprised how fast it was.. i went to the LTO in the block.. it took me only an hour and a half in total and i got my license right after that.. if only my DL wont be like all the new DL that gets the picture smudged: (

went to watch ironman with my 2sis and 1bro.. last full show kami which started at 945 ended past 12midnight.. lol my mom was furious.. but the movie was surprising worth it.. highly recommended!!

one former colleague in HSBC is resigning and migrating to canada.. she had her despedida friday night 9pm at Zirkoh greenhills.. yup the one you past by in wilson street.. i was actually having second thoughts of going coz i have this impression that comedy bar is not my sort of fun... well it did not disappoint there were some kabastusan.. but good thing i was pretty far and the view is pretty blocked by heads.. so not as disturbiing as i thought..

it was actually nice parang concert siya with standup comedy.. out of 7 host/singer/comedian 6 are gays.. which made the only guy there looked really cute na (hha by comparison)... i stayed until midnight trying to wait for Aiai who was the special guest.. but strict curfew made me went home before aiai got to zirkoh.. grabe what time niya plano dumating? hhe

grabe last night i went out for dinner.. this guy who's our grace schoolmate is getting married.. so normal lang yun.. parang family friend ata.. pero he just courted her last month. naging sila na ng 1 week and then nagpropose na siya!! hha grabe im not sure kung insulting sa kanya pero i was like "pumayag yung girl?!?" lol.. ka age lang din natin eh so i was really taken aback.. willing na siya magpakasal?

random thoughts

slept at manila pen.. hhe well sort of.. i attended a "seminar" or "briefing" in the peninsula and we were one hour too early because of our dad's chronic never be late attitude.. hhe so we looked for a place where we could sit without waiters asking what we wanted to buy.. ended up falling asleep in their lounge hhe...

half asleep... you could hear the symphony of noises.. its amazing to think that beneath all those mumbles and laughs are provate individual conversation which actually have meaning..

H i just realize that i love love love the song chasing cars din.. actually ive heard the song before but i started to really love it when i watched an episode of grey's anatomy in youtube and that song made the scene so much more touching.. made me sad even if that's the only scene that i've actually watched.. made me curious about the whole show now.. darn it...

im back to my pre cruise weight.. 7.5 lbs more than my ideal weight but heck i cant eat leaves every dinner right?!? hhe actually i havent been eating salad this past few days just less rice.. anyway how come i seem to be losing weight on the wrong parts of my body? my belly and arms are still huge : (

i forgot that my DL is expiring this year.. and i think april comes before may!! and its may 12 na!

reality bites

a certain acquaintance is getting married this end of may and i happened to chat with him today... i congratulated him of course.. alam niyo ba sagot niya?? "ganyan talaga kung tumatanda na.. ikaw din malapit na"

well for one thing it reminded me that i need a boyfriend.. darn him hhe and then it made me realize that maybe marriage is not as ideal or as romantic as i thought it should be.. it seems that marriage is not something that happens because of fate or destiny. it seems that marriage IS an obligation as we grow older..

of course everybody knows the pattern..

as a baby- all we need to do is i dunno learn to talk and walk
as a kid - all we need to do is to be a nice obedient kid
as a student - all we need to do is pass exams and graduate (be it kindergarten, elementary, highschool or college)
as a adult - all we needd to do is GET a job, GET a husband and GET pregnant..

it seems that we're on the end of the cycle.. and then we repeat it all again.. so. what exactly are we suppose to look forward to in this life? lifetime of work and problems??

movies!!!

i watched 88 the other night in trinoma.. i didnt know it was about a serial killer hhe.. i was having second thoughts the moment i saw the dead people!! i would have left if not for the tickets and the popcorn! hhe it was pretty nice.. with the suspense and stuffs.. well when the light came on i realize that there were a lot of old guys watching the movie.. sobrang konti lang ng nanood and half of the groups had an old man with them hhe.. i realized that kami pala yung out of place.. maybe they were watching becauses Al Pacino is uhm catering to the more mature audience : )

last night i watched atonement which my bro downloaded way before the movie was shown here.. i didnt get to watch it in cinema so i made do with the downloaded file : ) *SPOILERS* wtf!! i didnt know about the thing that happened to the lovers huhuhu.. i was really surprised.. i completely forgot about the write ups about the movie so i was really shocked : ( anyway it was nice kinda boring in some parts pero really worth watching.. wala parin tatalo kay Mr Darcy : )

tonight i watched 27 dresses.. loved it : ) cyclops is so so cute!!!!!! love him hhe... even though i know na whats going to happen.. it still is nice to watch feel good movies once in a while.. hhe no thinking just a lot of sigh moments : )

i guess i havent graduated to mature films hhe.. maybe tom i'd watch sleepless in seattle.. another romantic comedy which ive keep on hearing about.. but im turned off by the color of the movie.. it seems really old..

hhe any other movie suggestions? im kinda bummed out of my mind these days..

anyway a friend "forced" me to watch grey's anatomy.. well not really maybe suggested and forced would be the better description.. i didnt realize that the guy is not the "grey" in "grey's anatomy"!!! akala ko siya yung lead hhe.. ive downloaded season 1 and waiting for me to like it before downloading season 2 and so on..

i feel weird.. i have so many smileys but im not hyperly happy.. kinda in a null mood.. not happy not sad not angry not calm.. im confused.. i feel like i should do something (i know i need to be doing something more worthwhile) i just dont know how to start..

you are what you eat

hhe everyone has heard of theis statement.. you are what you eat.. well then i guess im a junkie.. i can live for days with chips, ice cream, cake, chocolate, candies, soda, popcorn etc.. uhoh. not good lol.

thinking about death

are you scared to die?

im not sure if i believe people who says that they are not afraid to die.. because iam personally scared sh!tless about it.. i cannot stare death in the face without wanting to cry.. it's not just about being gone.. its about the feeling of emptiness.. i feel more for the people that are left behind.. of course death is a big thing for the person who died(for obvious reasns) but it wouldn't really have a big impact in his/her future(cause they dont have none in this world at least).. it's with the ones who are left behind that the dead person's death really matters.. and im scared about that.. im scared to feel that sense of emptiness and scared to cause such emptiness..

another thing is that- is it bad to appreciate death? what if the person is almost dead maybe not physically but in everything else.. what if he/she is living a miserable life? would death be so bad?

im feeling sad.. i dont like thinking about these stuff. its not good for my naivete(which i treasure hhe)

23 randomness

23 randomness

#1 my passion in life is to go anywhere everywhere somewhere all the time

#2 i love watching movies where there's a happy ending.. it makes me believe that maybe someday i can find my happy ending too

#3 i cry a lot watching tv soap..

#4 i love tortillos and catsup flavored picnic

#5 i still have my high school notes somewhere in my cabinet.. (due to laziness and sentimentality)

#6 i love vanilla ice cream

#7 i love gary v and jose mari chan.. the only local artist that i would pay to watch

#8 i have a stagnant friendster account and a one year delayed multiply acccunt

#9 ayaw kong may nakatapat sa akin na aircon or electric fan

#10 i must have read 1 out of 4 books that i have bought since i quit HSBC

#11 i believe HSBC is the best bank

#12 i hate snakes and anything slimy

#13 i have a claustrophobic tendency (almost fainted in mrt twice )

#14 i hate it when someone is angry with me

#15 i cant sing cant dance and cant draw

#16 my only sport would be badminton

#17 i dont have any contact with my college friends

#18 i am gaining more weight this past two months than i did these past 6 years

#19 i love having my picture taken (coz there's only a few shots that comes out okay.. lol)

#20 i have no idea how to read computer language

#21 i want to learn how to cook dance and play an instrument

#22 i want a boyfriend hhe..

# 23 i wish to grow old with my family and friends-all of which are doing well..

top of mind randomness.. pagpasensiyahan niyo na : )

weekend

it was fun.. parang wala tayong ginawa kung hindi kumain matulog at magkwentuhan.. oh yeah at mag babad ng katawan at legs in our very own oversized bath tub i mean pool : )

i went to trinoma tonight since my mom wanted to buy something.. kaya i was able to watch a part of gary v's show.. he's so cute in a idolizing way.. he can sing really really well even though he's dancing really really well and then he's so nice with the people.. and he's a Christian to boot.. haiz he's gotta be my favorite local artist..

he sang a lot of familiar old tagalog songs.. some remixed version of old favorites.. he was dancing and walking around so much it was a surprise that he could still hit all the notes.. he sang "How did you know" as his finale.. making me love him even more... it has got to be one of the most romantic song ever... and him singing it live is so so so so dreamy "sigh" moment..

movies and plays to watch

i just saw the trailer of sex and the city movie trailer in youtube.. i really wanna watch..

"life doesnt always turn out ot be your fantasy that's why
you need friendships that are real to get you through it all..."

-bradshaw in the trailer of the movie

parang it sums up the whole idea of the show..

I also want to watch Cinderella in theater..i guess you can never really accept that life is not a fairy tale.. sometimes you still want to be brain washed..hhe i have never really wanted to go watch a play.. forcibly a lot of times na for english and filipino classes.. oh yeah and chinese orgs (hhe joke lang H i really enjoyed that one)

summer!!!!!!!!!!!

it so HOT!!! i have spent two summers in hsbc making me remember how lucky i used to feel working in an airconed office all day during the hottest time of the day.. i can stand the freezing cold temp of the office.. you can just wear jackets or sweaters to make you more comfortable.. but now i need to deal with the heat like everybody else.. no wonder malls are such a hit in the philippines..

chick flick rules

just watched sydney white

it was muymuy who asked my brother to download it for her.. i realize that i should probably grow up since this is a movie catering to kids like my shobe but who cares it's still cute even with the predictable plot and ending with cute romantic scenes like THIS try it you'll just love the guy..

: )

cute MO

yesterday since i was sick and stayed at home.. i watched mo twister in a show of janice de belen.. it was really funny and intriguing even if he keeps on saying that he's a bland person hhe..

he gave this illustration in answer to one question thrown at him.. everybody knows who michael jordan is right? and everybody thinks that he has gotta be the best basketball player ever.. but did you know that he's made more misses than hits in his career? according to mo he's field goal percentage is 44-45% which means that he has more chance of missing a shot than getting it in.. but he is remembered for his great shots and his basketbal skills even with that kind of of FG% (which mo said is pretty good na)...

it was the perfect illustration of it doesnt matter how many misses you have what would count would be what you have been able to achieve... maybe there's someone who has made just one shot in his life and was able to shoot that ball in.. well then he has a 100% FG but who would know but him since he just risked that one chance?

koreanovela induced boredom

i realize that i get easily bored because of my tv addiction.. what with me watching koreanovela on my free time where in the character's lives are a mess of love hate fights tears and laughters.. whose life wont look dull compared to that?!? well im sure that there are some people's lives which is more exciting than telenovelas..

I just finished watching to marry a millionaire a koreanovela currently being shown in abs.. since i dont have the patience and the tv to watch it everynight i "patiently" downloaded part by part of the show on youtube and squinted hard to read the english subtitles on the extra small screen.. i really thought that its going to be boring since the only thing that interested me are the dates on the show. and the guy didnt look cute and he only striked me to be a young look a like of philip salvador which is not a good thing Lol..

but as all koreanovela the guy will really grow into you.. he's really cute : ) hha

right back at ya

the other day i was texting a friend about choices.. since my friend M has had a problem since last year and up until now thats still what M seems to be thinking about..

so i texted an advice in this sense. maybe the problem is not an option wherein you have a choice.. maybe its something that you should accept and cope with..

im not sure if it helped but it made me realize that thats what i did.. i made a choice to accept my situation and try to be happy we my current status.. its different from hsbc having to work with your parents all day is harder than commuting and working to hsbc.. different expectations different priorities same old people..

its an experience which could really help me when i eventually start my own business no holidays no vacations no social life.. pouts

dinner dinner dinner

this weekend has been food food food tlga.. super gastos pero fun din naman..

surprisingly i had fun last night.. i had dinner with kim's friends since kev frm hk came home.. we had dinner in jacks loft the one in gh.. i wasnt planning on going na since i dont have a car.. but lo and behold kim came along with a car in tow : ) hhe so i went along and as usual went past my curfew again..

anyway 1/4 of the time lang naman ako OP and i dont really have a way out of it since kev would be the one driving us home..

the talks centralled on grace college..

poor students.. how would they grow when they will not leave grace? they would be so sheltered so naive and so innocent.. maybe some of them would never learn how to commute if their life depended upon it. there will be no parties concerts for them.. and worst of all J T !!! (shout out to the friend of the other J T you know its not your friend : ) hhe )

would they be wearing uniforms? still made from CANDY?? would they be allowed to go out of they campus during breaks? since only students grade two and below are allowed to go out for lunch.. would speak english and chinese campaign be imposed? would they be using our old gym? would there even be enough students to form a basketball team for NCAA?

funny the horrors of being with grace your whole student life.. of courses there are a lot of horrors outside.. even scarier the grace.. but wouldnt overcoming these horrors be more useful for the kid than being stuck inside grace forever?

no offense hhe baka may mag violent reaction dyan.. im not against sending kids to grace ffor college education but i really find it funny in a horrifying way... think sweeney todd : )

one after another

one after another youtube series

having more time at night i have started watching animes on youtube.. it started with cooking master boy.. which i really liked.. it was light and has a different cooking "contest" at every episode..

i recently finished magic knight rayearth's first season.. it was a really a cute even after all of these years.. hhe i knew ive watched it more than 10 years ago.. but it's drawing was still nice and the story is better than some shows today.

now im going to watch season two of ray earth.. hha iam such a bum!! some one help me haha

one after another

one after another movie

since being a bum i was able to catch five movies in cinemas in one month.. well technically feb na yung fifth movie ko.. i bought tix for my parents and grandparents to go watch battle of wits in the spring festival movie something something in trinoma.. well since the night i ought the tickets eh nakapanood na sila so my lolo didnt wanted to go watch another movie kasi daw maingay hhe : )

so i ended up using one of the ticket kasi sayang.. it was actually really nice.. plus cute actors who i wouldnt remember their names excedpt for forever adorable andy lau : )

it was set in wartime chine pre dynasty era so i was expecting.. uhm well war so battle fights and stuffs like that.. well there was some battles but the main story method is not fighting per se because they are like 4000 people of them against 100000 soldiers... its a battle of well WITS.

it was gross when in one scene they were collecting poopoo.. which they eventually used to slather and cover their roofs making the roofs fire proof.. (well im not sure if its really true that poopoo will make your house fire proof dont try this at home.)

anyway the movie was enjoyable.. buti nalang i was forced by my parents to use the extra ticket : )

its feb

wow times is fast.. an uncle said kanina for us to maximize our "life" or days we should try to wake up as early as possible.. hhe.. onga naman pero masarap talgang matulog eh.. funny a person was quoted one time saying he hates sleeping its the closest thing to death... so he tries to be awake as long as possible : ) true din naman...

late realization

i realized that i am not a fan of constructive criticisms. even though i know that they are right and that the people telling me these means more benefit than harm.. (im not going to say no harm) iam just too stubborn and too damn full of pride to listen and react.. well i hear them and react the opposite way hha

to the most confused bum on earth hha

today is my first official non -HSBC employee day..

i really didnt wanted to wake up its not like a saturday where in i can sleep a little later than usual and feel secure cause i have a job waiting for me.. i felt lost. i didnt know what i am supposed to do now that i dont have HSBC.. it was different after graduation since then i know im supposed to be looking for a job.. the pressure of finding a job was there but unlike now.. i feel that im getting pressured and not getting pressured at the same time..

i can swallow my pride and go back to hsbc which would be STUPID.. or i can stand by my decision and be clueless for a while which would be STUPID.. or i can ask my parent's help/advice which would also be STUPID maybe not really stupid but awkward..

i dont know what im looking for and what i want and what i am capable of doing.. i feel that i dont know anything at all.. which is frustrating because i feel like im back at square 1..

hsbc was an escape.. from responsibilities, obligations and constant nag of my parents.. it was an extended part of my comfort zone which i never really left.. and now im lost.. i cant go back and i dont know how to move forward.. i am most certainly not staying put.. then where am i gonna go?

after a loooooooong (one way) "talk"

scenario is i went out with a friend from office this afternoon.. went to watch a movie and coffee after.. it was a friendly get together lang but my parents are blowing it super out of proportion.. from discussion about what will other people think/SAY to kidnapping to racial differences..

its frustrating that they want to choose the people that i would SHOULD hang out with.. i know naman from where they are coming from and i know that they just want to prevent "complications".. but just because i dont want to get married to a F doesnt mean i couldnt be friends with them.. my mom went on rambling about how every C and F relationship would bring any C down.. it was so unfair of them to think that i couldnt think for myself.

tidbits of the start of 2008

havent had time to gather my thoughts down.. kaya id just jumble everything in a senseless entry..

i quit my job.. i really REALLY quit my job... oh no oh no oh no.. its really sinking in slowly.. this is my last week in HSBC and i still havent started looking for another job.. or looked into further studies.. or talked about it with my parents. i mean they know that i quit but we havent really had that parent-child kind of talk..

i was asked if i regret my decision.. after a few seconds.. i realize that i dont.. i mean i have some regrets but as a whole i knew its the right decision.. if i dont do it now. i would just be prolonging the it.. but i would miss the people terribly and also the office itself and fort..

on a different note.. i went to Coffee Bean last night in trinoma.. went to try their double vanilla tea latte para maiba.. it was TERRIBLE!!! super yuck.. hhe bad advertisement ba??

ive been watcing cooking master boy in youtube : ) Fun hha