friday night

last night i tagged along my new team's dinner. i was torn between going or having dinner by myself. kaya kinapalan ko na ang face ko and went with them.

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actually my friends invited me to eat dinner before going home unfortunately im not yet done with my work: ( until 7 kasi ako so mga 7 plus pa ako matatapos.. they tried to wait for me naman pero i told them to go ahead na.. : (

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anyway since late kami nagstart late din kami natapos.. my parents were super angry.. i cant tell them i went out with my team coz they would be anxious since i barely know them.. kaya they cannot understand why we(me and my former team) had another dinner when we just have our despedida the other night..

anyway i was not able to meet up with kim today coz i was too damn scared to ask permission kahit na sa the block lang.. : (

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dinner was awkward.. i should have listened to my inner voice and just went home even though it's friday night.. barely ate coz i didnt have the appetite for what they're ordering.. i was able to get to know a few of my new teammates better. one of which nakasama ko na sa CAS dati.

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they keep telling me to let go of my former team na. masyado pa rin daw akong attach sa CAS. i told them na hindi kasi ako sanay na super seriuos at hindi naguusap ang mga kasama ko.. i think i better shut my big mouth before i alienate myself from my new team..

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but i feel that im getting used to my new team na din naman.. sad pa rin at times but i go back to my former place less frequently na.. i guess its normal to compare them sa former team ko.. ibang iba talaga.. sana maging okay naman itong new team ko

even though....

• they rarely talk.. if they talk its about work..
• they dont go out together.. yesterday was their first..
• they are older.. kahit wala sa itsura
• serious sa work..
• barely eat lunch.
• shifting

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i hope in a week or two, i learn to like my new team para hindi naman puro negative stuff nasusulat ko about them.

despedida

tonight we had our despedida with HBPH team.. its really sad to be leaving and knowing that this dinner would officially "cut" our relationship with my original team.. sad but i guess its time to move on and experience new people and new environment..

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i believe that adaptability to change is a very important criteria for a person to succeed. unfortunately im not sure if i have that "adventurous" streak that loves change.. i tend to find comfort in the old ways wherein i am confident in myself. whereas i find it hard to find myself being the newbie again.. when im prone to making mistakes and following the "teachers" word for word because i dont understand a thing.

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my other teammates who has not left the team yet are both thinking of resigning and just starting their own busines.. i know we all dream of having our own business and really standing on our own two feet. but i know that as of now. im still not ready. i dont think im mature enough and experienced enough. im not sure if this is the "matured" me speaking or the "insecure" me discouraging.. im confused. and im sad to be confused..

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we had dinner at giligans.. it was really nice to have dinner with them because it feels fun even though there was nothing really special about the event.. we just ate and talked and left.. but i find it nice to be simply there together and knowing that it will not be complete without one of them.. having spent exactly 9 months with them.. its nice to know that we can let our guard down and simply enjoy each other's company.

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im both happy and sad because of the despedida..

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but sabi ko nga dati with my PSI micro buddies. happy na din ako.. even if we can't make the relationship last at least we were able to share this experience together.

G2G

got my first g2g today: )

dunno for what exactly but L said its connected to his "meeting" with the branches. since i thought everyone got one i didnt asked for details na..

new job is weird.. i have more free time now than before... but when it comes to work sobra naman kung dumating..