foreboding

have you ever had that feeling that something is going to happen.. something huge that you should anticipate it with joy/be scared witless about it?

sometimes.. i just go on a day and suddenly start to become restless. from past experiences... it doesnt seem to be a warning or anything.. its just a feeling but nothing ever really happens.. but its damn freaks me out everytime it happens..

since i dont know if its gonna be a good thing or bad thing.. whenever i feel unexplainably happy i would pull my happiness back and worry about what is causing that feeling. or when i feel unexplainably anxious i try to reassure myself to stop fretting.... did i forget something? or is there something important that is going to happen...

oh no.. when i write it out it feels more psychotic than when i was just thinking about it..

hehe.. anyway.. i dont understand myself either.. and im sure im not on drugs =D