letting go

its been almost a month since i've changed team.. it was easier than i expected.. since i could easily go back to my former teammates when im overly stressed from not talking for more than an hour.

hhe joke.. of course i talk. "uy question" "pano ulit toh?" "pa approve" "pa disapprove"

but seriously. im starting to warm up to my new colleagues.. they now know just how makulit iam when i want something. and how i love junk foods. and how i walk around(towards my former team) when im done with my work. kaya tuloy they are planning on giving me extra work everytime they see me walking around.. (hope this was a joke)

anyway its sad to feel out of place na minsan sa dati kong team. they are still very warm to me but i sometimes feel awkward na dun. or maybe because they are busy when i go there kaya no time to chat? it just feels weird that i dont know the latest chismis or the latest problem or the latest joke or the latest fight anymore. and its especially sad when they dont invite me when they have pizza or food anymore. im so not part of the dept anymore: (

makes me wonder if the friends i make in the office would last after i decide to leave.

i guess the reason why i dislike changes.. half the fear of rejection from the new and half the fear of being forgotten by the former ..

actually its pretty funny that fate is slowly adjusting me to change. first napunta ako sa ibang team pero same office with my old team nearby.. then in a few weeks we're moving to fort. so new location naman and surroundings. i guess the next would be new company na talaga. im tired of saying i wanna leave and not finding the willpower or determination to actually start the process of leaving.

omg we are actually going top fort na before the month ends.. im going to miss enterprise.. how watsons and ministop and starbucks is just an elevator ride away and jolibee and mcdo just a few steps away.. glorietta and greenbelt a few blocks away.. shux i really dont know how i will survive going to fort everyday. if only there's mrt there. or even just a shuttle or jeep or something.